Homework

I have lot of homework to do, as a human being I am far from perfect (the kind of perfect I'd pictured in myself) I flawed, I sinned, I lied, I declined.

Lot of work to do to mold myself into the form I wanted to be. Lot of ups and downs, prouds and dissatisfies, smiles and tears.

-to be continue-

Mad af

When a man can't stand up for his religion and belief.
How... Just how can I expect him to stand up for me?

If somehow, someone insulted me.

It was their holy book and faith were insulted.

I was very offended but some of them just like. Chill.
(((Like Whattt? Why??)))

Be offended, it's normal.

But try remain calm and composed.

*Referring to the case of one of the governor in Indonesia

Still mad af,

N

Practical

I am about to simplifying my daily life/routine, simplifying decision making on mundane things.

WHY?

Because I do aware my mind always filled with these unimportant  tiny little details, all of the details I am afraid to miss, and sometimes instead of focusing in the big picture, I focused on these little details.

Some people may not find it difficult to actually focusing on important stuff, but i found it rather difficult because all of those 'details' coming at me.

I want to get rid all of those noises, nuisances, and make automatic decisions for it.

Anyway, the reason I wanted to change my lifestyle and my decision on everything, was because it started when I reread my journal and went back to 2014. I was in college, and as a college student my days filled with tasks and assignment. But things went wrong, and I faced problems. I don't think I tackled it well...

Then 2015 came, I kind of slipped away with my problems because I was focusing on my Final Project, and it was busy year, kind of productive but no, I was just busy.

So the problems came back in late 2016, and I took it as a second chance as I was given the opportunity to face these problems with different approach, and to actually win it over.

I asked myself, how can I facing the same problem as I had back in 2014? that means, I failed (to tackle the problems) right? and God gave me another trial, so maybe this time I''ll success.

It was like a reset button on a game. But it applied on your life.

So I wanted to reset things in my life, I eliminated bad influences, I eliminated stuffs I don't like or I hate to do, I (try) eliminating bad habits. Things that brought me down the past years.

Now it's time to simplifying my daily lives and to actually do something worthwhile.

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Love,

N